I may not always have looked after myself as well as I should have, especially in my younger years. Back then, life felt endless and mortality like a myth. Over the last five years, however, I’ve developed a much greater sense of self-awareness, both mentally and physically, and the things I once took for granted have become a weight upon me. I realised the only person who could change my inner and outer world was me. I gave up drinking and smoking, hit the gym, and one of th

I like to think of Ben Langley as, at his core, a strong character. Physically he could hold his own, having trained in martial arts, and he was a loyal friend, brother, and father. It was only when he became entangled in a chaotic relationship that his fragility began to surface – slowly at first, then completely – until the consequences finally unravelled him. Even the toughest of us are not immune to what Ben endured. Some people find their way through trauma; others simpl

In 1996, I embarked on a solo backpacking trip around India for one hundred nights – the journey that inspired much of Towards the Within . In those days, there was no social media or mobile phones, and instead of Spotify, I carried a Walkman loaded with cassette tapes. In some ways, they were simpler times. When I returned from a trip around East Asia and Australia in 2017, I realised how much I’d lost by taking endless digital photos and being glued to my mobile phone – how

India was not the first country I travelled to, nor would it be the last. Yet it has held something within me that remains very special, spiritual even. It was a trip taken after what I considered a lifetime of running from my past, and it was there that I finally found a sense of freedom. Perhaps it was the mystique of the place, or perhaps it was a land so opposite to my own that it anchored me long after I had left. To this day, I am often caught off guard by a memory. But